Life is a Ray Full of Sunshine

I meet with it almost everyday of my life.

But today I met with awkward from my Sophmore year in high school.

So weird, never thought I’d had to encounter this guy’s face again, but needless to say my friend worked with him and wanted to say HI.

She didn’t know but I did and really I wasn’t gonna say anything because:
First: I wanted to test out and see if I still had any bitterness or resentment since I’d last seen him.
Second: I wanted to see how awkward this “reunion” was gonna be.

Needless to say it was just a tad bit awkward but other than that it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I didn’t feel any anger towards him and it well felt nice.

GRUBBIN’

Not grubbing or grabbing but GRUBBIN’

Grubbin’: To eat or refer to food.

When outta no where God brings in people that fill in that empty hole.

The hole your “good” friends left.
The ones you thought would be there through thick and thin and are gone.

These kids. They make me smile.

I haven’t laughed so hard/so much or smiled to the point where my cheeks hurt because of the people with me.

The funny thing too, they aren’t interns.
(Not saying hanging around interns is bad or bugging me at all.)

I’m so happy I’ve created this new friendship with these kids. It just puts a smile on my face and heart and simply makes me happy.

I officially now have a car.
No more mooching off of people for rides.
No more waiting for my parents to pick me up.
No more going without eating during interns cause I can’t find a ride to go to lunch.
No more waiting.

But then again, it means:
-I have to get my license NOW
-Learn how to drive a stick shift.
-Find a name for my car.

Its gonna happen by Monday.

I’m so thankful.

I find God’s sense of humour hilarious.
Especially the fact that what you normally don’t want to do or expect to do is EXACTLY the thing he ends up wanting you to do!

This Wednesday, January 26, 2011 after a powerful night of God’s impartation at GCB my mum decided to take us to Carl’s Jr.

The only people when we walk in are the employees and a group of high school boys from Mountain View’s wrestling team in a booth, there’s about 6 of them.

The moment I walk in I feel this heaviness.
It was so gross, I don’t even know how to explain it.
So heavy my attitude kinda changed as I was in there, and even my mother noticed it, asking if I was ok.

I sat down and I began to receive these thoughts of suicide not by me but almost as if I was receiving someone else’s thoughts in the restaurant. But I couldn’t figure out who they were coming from. And I asked God to show me.

At that moment I looked up and made eye contact with one of the boys from the group, he was smiling and laughing but the minute he looked at me it was like we made this weird connection, almost like he knew that I knew something about him but wasn’t sure, yet was kind scared I stared at him. Which makes sense, what person wouldn’t be scared of some stranger staring at them. Intently?

I almost started crying and kept asking in my thoughts God “Why? Why are you giving me these thoughts?” And he said “Because I want him to know that I LOVE him.” “Ok? But why me? Why can’t you send in some guy leader from church to tell him that?? First of all I’m a girl and they’re high school boys they’re gonna think I’m flirting with them. Second I’m not good at talking to random strangers I’ll just stumble upon my words.” And immediately he said “Rachel, shut up and stop making up excuses just tell him I’ll do the rest.”

So I thought “Ok I’ll do it after I’m done eating.”

I kept putting it off as much as I could as well as trying to compromise with God somehow till it was time to go and I stalled by refilling my drink, and thought “Maybe this is just me thinking all this. God, you can do it all send someone to him.”

I began walking out and as I pushed the door open God said “If you walk out now, you’ll walk out the rest of your life.”

CONVICTION!

I walked almost ran back and told the kid “I don’t know you or your life but God told me to tell you that He LOVES you.” I was trying so hard to hold my tears back as he replied with eyes wide open “He does?” I nodded and saaid “Yes.”

After walking away, I felt the heaviness leave me and returned to the car with such peace and joy from God.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that God can set up divine appointments anywhere from buses to fast food restaurants.

And when he does, don’t just ignore the appointment receive his word and respond to it immediately.

Just God.

killed the boy.

Henry Cavill from Stardust, The Tudors (tv show) and Tristan and Isolde lost both of Robert Pattinson’s roles in Harry Potter and Twilight! In fact Cavill was Stephanie Meyers (author of Twilight) first choice for the role of the infamous Edward Cullen.

Cavill young british actor has been a heartbeat away from being Bruce Wayne in Batman Begins, James Bond in Casino Royale, and Clark Kent in Superman Returns.

Because of this adversity he’s been dubbed “most unluckiest man in Hollywood.”

Personally I believe he would’ve been the best pick for Edward.

I’m gonna gain the body type and dress as cute as this. 40’s style was made for me, the big booty type/semi-boyish style. :) I’mma do it! It’s gonna happen.

Your distancing yourself from me, you can’t tell, maybe you don’t even notice, or maybe you know you’re just doing it on purpose.

I reach out
I try to help you.
Just talk to you.

But you’re slowly retreating.

Making up excuses.

Ignoring me.

I can tell I’m not stupid.

I’m scared that if I say something it’ll piss you off and ruin our friendship.

I just pray our friendship doesn’t fade away.

Even when you leave God, he never leaves you. His light is greater than yours.

I love how I can sleep on that and wake up to know that his power and his love is greater is than any circumstance I may be going through.
Nothing comforts me more than knowing that. :)

My dear intern mate. Heather Drury and I are going down pine. This happened tonight January 20, 2011 at approximately 11pm. I’m unaware at the fact that she’s driving 10mph over the speed limit.

A cop passes by and she immediately asks me “Oh crap. What’s the speed limit?” I tell her “25” the cop at the moment is turning around following us for a bit and turns on his lights.

We both literally began praying.

Let me shorten it up by saying that she had no proof of insurance, her license and registration we’re both expired, and she was going over the speed limit.

Regardless of all this, the cop did not give her a ticket. Can you say grace and favor was over Heather? I think so!

This just proves the point that God is so good and so merciful even in the simplest things.

Because of this God’s gonna bless this cop.

PS. Ya’ll need to follow my friend! :) heatherdrury89.tumblr.com

God thinks about you more than you even think about yourself.

Even before you were ever thought of, he knew you, his plan and purpose for you and everything else.

Proving the point that he loves unconditionally, supernaturally, abundantly.

There aren’t enough adjectives to describe him. That’s how great he is.

He’s indescribable.

As cheesy or cliché this may seem.

God loves you.

As you might notice I didn’t keep my word and didn’t refrain from reblogging.

Sorry for lying.

There have been other things I’ve struggled with and haven’t been able to refrain from like simple things, talking back, lying, just little things..

I realized that the more I fall back to sin the more I realize that I can’t do ANYTHING by myself I need God.

You can go about saying you won’t do something and be determined no to do so, but end up doing whatever that was you weren’t going to do the next day.

You see the thing is if you want to stop, it won’t happen till you hand over that burden to God. Its just as simple as that.

I’ve noticed that lately I’ve been reblogging to many things. And I want to formally apologize because I hate it when others do it yet I slowly falling into that category.

I promise to do my best and refrain from reblogging any more things. Haha.

For the record at least it isn’t posts other people write but pictures.

patrickglenn:

favorite books are:

the kite runner

river of heaven

hearts in atlantis

racing in the rain

fahrenheit 451

when crickets cry

running out of books to read. I like books with good heart. pleasssse suggest one if you have any ideas.

a piece of cake by cupcake brown, a long way gone by ishmael beah (great book)

“The devil had a plan to kill me, this I know! But God intercepted and told the devil NO! God blocked it! He wouldn’t let it be so. It was my Lord.”  

If you knew how much God has shielded you from, you would never stop giving him praise.

Even those who claim to be atheist and agnostic have never been outside the grace of God. They don’t know what its like to be outside of the grace of God and outside of his mercy and never-ending love.

 So shut up about the stupid stuff you’re always complaining about, even if its a bad day you and I have NO IDEA what is like to be outside of Gods grace.